The Ultimate Thank-You Note

Discouragement has always, and will always be looming around the world waiting to rear its unnerving head at the right time, being sure only to kick us when we’re already down. But sometimes discouragement is personified by the people we least expect. It’s to those people who I write this rant of slightly haughty gratitude.

Thank you for telling me there will always be someone better than me. Thank you for advising me to not try out in that section of the choir because there were so many people better than me. Thank you for giving me the percentage of students who lose their scholarship minutes after I get my acceptance/scholarship letter. Thank you for telling me that living in a foreign country isn’t feasible for someone my age. Thank you for wishing me good luck with a smirk while I applied for the internship of a lifetime. Thank you for telling me I wouldn’t ever get that 4.0. Thank you for constantly rolling your eyes and looking down your noses at me every time I mentioned my dream of becoming a lawyer. Thank you for brushing my dreams aside and telling me that I’d change my mind before I got to college. Thank you for always telling me how hard law school was compared to anything else I’d ever done in my life, and that getting in would not be an easy task.

I’m thanking you, you see, because you became the voice in my head that I’ve grown to hate. I’ve grown to hate it so much that I refuse to let it beat me. In turn, I’ve refused to let you beat me, and I’ve won. You’ve made my smile much bigger when I do achieve what I set out to do, and I thought I ought to say thanks.

It's beginning to look a lot like springtime!

I guess I should find my blog voice, but I kind of wanted to be sporadic. Just say what's on my mind...that's a voice!

I'll be working 8-5 everyday next week which is unusual since every other week I pick up kids from school at 3:00 on Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday which gives me a nice break from the office. Oh well, I feel like I'm making lots of progress at my nice little office job now and will miss it this summer.

I'm STARVING. I'm going to pick up the kids to babysit them tonight from 5-8 and we're going to eat somewhere but because I'm trying to teach the oldest one how to be decisive I'm making her pick. I just get so tired of conversations that drrrrrag on because one person can't make a decision. So I'm passing my knowledge on to a 12 year old drama queen. haha, she'll make a damn good decision maker someday ;D

This week has been absolutely beautiful...I put on my flip flops this morning and welcomed spring in with a smile!

Nothing but thoughts

I can't believe the judges used their save on Matt...next week's gonna get crazy.

Things seem to be falling into place for my summer plans and the money saving extravaganza for law school that should've started oh about 21 years ago...I've got a great summer job set up being basically a nanny for two kiddos who live a very different life than mine at that age. We'll wake up, grab some breakfast, and lounge by the pool until I want to get up and make lunch. It'll be just the relaxation I need before the most intense 3 years of my life.

This in-between stage of my life is still awkward...my parents aren't sure how to treat me since I'm living at home but at the same time have a full time job and a college graduate. And truthfully I'm not sure how to live there normally. I miss Conway and the freedoms of not having to report to the 'rents about my every move.

I got off the phone a few minutes ago with the Regent housing people who didn't have good news. The guy was nice, but told me the truth...I'm at the BOTTOM of the waiting list for campus housing. So I started looking at some apartment complexes around campus for some price checks. It's bananas. I'm going to try and enlist the two people I know at Regent to hook me up with cheaper places. So far I'm looking at $800-1000 per month to live in a decent complex.

I'm also reading Judy Garland's bio for the first time. I've skimmed most of them through the years just for some fun facts but I've really dug into this one. My dilemma is that I'm afraid if I finish the book I'll end up hating Judy, whom I've adored my entire life. She was a pretty awful person although a lot of it stems from her childhood, or lack thereof, thanks to her mother and MGM who owned her...literally. I'll probably finish it because I'm halfway through, but I will definitely look at her differently for the rest of my life. One thing that the book has only said good things about is that Judy was without a doubt a genius when it came to acting. There were only 6 or 7 times that she ever had to shoot a scene more than once. Her directors said she could see the scene in her head as she was performing it. That is what I will take from this book.

I feel like I could keep writing but I'll save it for tomorrow's post.

Happy day after tax day :D

Unashamed

Tonight one of my favorite shows on TV is returning and I'm not ashamed to blog about it :D

Of course everyone has those shows that you never want to tell people you're addicted to but I am unashamed when it comes to The Hills. I even have season 1 on DVD. I have been told that "The Hills" is the worst of the worst in the category of reality TV and truthfully I can make no argument against that. But how hilarious is it to watch people who live like they do? Even more than hilarious it's obviously captivating to some viewers (like me) because I know that even if I could choose to be transported into Lauren's life I would refuse.

I have to commend the writers of the series because to me it follows like a good lighthearted romance novel...always dramatic when there's no need, in the circle of friends everyone dates everyone else, the girls are gorgeous and the guys are pretty boys...It's just all around a mind numbing smile fest :)

So I thought I'd give my girly two sense on the previews for the upcoming season:

First it's LC's final season which should truthfully be the last season of the show. I mean the only other person people cared about on the show was Whitney and now we follow her on "The City!" Basically LC's who holds everyone else together...it's not like when she leaves Audrina is going to call Heidi to hang out and start drama with Spencer?? I won't watch anymore after LC leaves...it's my silent protest.

Second the previews show Audrina moving in on Brody and supposedly "staying in his room" after what looks to be a drunken night on the beach. Well who cares? Everybody in that group has probably slept with every other person in the group at least once...and none of them will end up together.

Finally just like in every preview since the first season there is a hint that Heidi and LC will rekindle their long lost friendship and there will be a cry ridden forgiveness episode where we all cry. It never gets that far though and I don't think it will this season either...LC reads too high on the cool meter now, and obviously Heidi can't get herself away from Spencer long enough to regain her sanity

Anyway it's a 9pm tonight on MTV

An inspirational tragedy?

I hope it's not just me who thinks at least once a day that I am not prepared for law school at all. There are, at the moment, 4 books on my nightstand that would undoubtedly be of some aid to my preparation but I choose to read a whimsical love story that is probably deadening my brain cells. But I mean the bright green cover goes hand in hand with the springtime that's blossoming outside, and those 4 educational books are deep shades of burgundy and gold...not stimulating.

I do judge a book by it's cover...and who doesn't?

My brother's recent history fair project was on the life of Mozart, and I was challenged by this composer's story, or really his tragedy. He died at the age of 35 in the prime of his life. Every time I think about that it boggles my mind. Many say it was a tragedy and I agree to a point, but Mozart spent his life doing what he loved from the age of 2 until literally minutes before his death. For numbers sake, he composed over 600 pieces of music in his life. That was not a waste. So I choose not to mourn Mozart, but instead let his life inspire me to press hard into what I feel that I am called to do. Surely some may argue that the world was never exposed to what he could have written and that is the true tragedy, but Mozart did not let the world of music down when he left the world; he left us with a challenge. Whatever it is that you are called to do, that "hobby" that is so much more than that petty word, that part of your life you would hate most to lose: do that with fervor each day, run after it with a vigor that takes you over.

And let Mozart inspire you...